Sunday, 7 July 2013

Alone

I was in a bar or club in another country. I was looking for my boyfriend but couldn't see him so I left feeling quite upset. I ran through these black gates as fast as I could and sat down by these stairs. I got a bit scared and then after I got his text saying 'Hey, about to leave'. So I ran back. As I was going back, the club/bar was closing so there was loads of people outside. I held my phone tight trying to work out where my boyfriend was and trying to read it. Then two white girls was standing near me, one hit me across the head and I got scared and had anticipated it. I wanted to see a gap and make a run into the building but a car was coming towards me and a gang was near by. A while guy came by and saw me and said 'ok get her, she's a foreigner'. He wanted to hit me, I tried to hide my phone and I looked around frantically trying to find my boyfriend. He started to shout and I grabbed one of the white girls for protection and hid behind her. She looked at the friend as if to say 'what the fuck is she doing, come here and help me'. I looked around for him and I couldn't see him. No one was there to protect me. I was so scared my heart was beating fast. I woke up. I remember in the dream I told myself that it was only a dream and that it was ok. 

I haven't woke up from panic in a very long time! My resting heart rate is around 65bpm, but I woke up with a heart beat of 79bpm. 

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